Last summer, I made the decision to come to SUU in Cedar City, Utah with my best friends, Hadly and Jennifer. I was soo nervous to be away from my mommy who has always been by my side in every step and new adventure; this adventure she wouldn't be right by my side. My mom and grandma drove to Cedar in my grandma's car and Aubrey and I drove in my car. If you know me, you know that I don't go under 90 on the way there, so we left my mom and grandma in the dust. Blasting dixie chicks and old cds of Reagan's that were in my car, we had a pretty fun drive. After the weekend, when they had to leave, reality hit me that I was now on my own and three hours from home. I was so nervous about starting school, but I was so happy that I would have my best friends with me. Fall semester was flying by. I was starting to get the hang of the whole "college life." Starting my first year of college in a long-distance relationship wasn't the best idea for me. It was a constant battle of making eachother happy. Being in a relationship, I didn't bother to really meet anyone. That's a bad idea starting your first year of college.
(me and Michael at the Toby Keith concert when we first started dating)
That soon ended, leaving me heart broken and not even knowing what to do. I wanted to just go home every weekend, because there wasn't anything to do in Cedar. I didn't know anyone and I felt like there were zero attractive guys here to even want to meet (shallow thinking, I know). So I had a little rough patch of always being bored and wishing I had a big group of friends to be with (not that I didn't have fun with my best friend roommates). I also got a little wild due to boredom. Obviously, that added to my rough patch. Ups and downs, ups and downs. Mostly, our weekends involved going to Dexter's (our friend from heber and Hadly's cousin) apartment and hanging out.
(us heber kids at orientation)
(we took a walk around campus for the first time!)
Next, spring semester started. I definitely have loved this semester way more than fall semester. I am now way more busy with school because 17 credits is a lot more than 11;). I'm loving my psychology classes and am pretty positive I chose the right major for me. I can't wait to live out my dream of being a social worker or child and adolescent therapist. I've now actually met people (other than the many people that are here from Heber...haha, seriously though). The weekend here are actually still kind of painful. What the freak is there to do in Cedar?? It's like a little bigger version of Heber, which is saying something. My life feels a little more straightened out than it was, and things are always happier when you're choosing the right! Although I'm pretty content with my current life, I still feel like there's something missing. I know there's that "one boy" out there and I will soon meet him. I'm confident that my Heavenly Father knows who that special someone for me is, and I will meet him when I'm ready. My mom loves telling me that she prays for that every night. This spring break, me and Had took a trip to California. It was kind of spur of the moment, and neither of us really thought it would happen. We drove the seven hours to Huntington Beach, California. Kind of a funny story...one night we were getting back to our hotel after going to dinner. From the car, we saw a few guys sitting in the hot tub. We made our way up to our room and right before we walked in the guys said, "Hey!" Being extremely sketched out as it was, we awkwardly slammed the door and locked the deadbolt...hahaha not even joking. My dad has always been super overprotective, and barely let us go after warning me over and over about talking to guys we don't know. I had the thought of the movie Taken in mind, which explains our reaction. We got a good laugh after we did that, at how ridiculous we were being. The next morning at breakfast, the guys came in the breakfast room and started talking to us (the same guys that were in the hot tub). They were with a couple of girls. They asked us if we were on spring break. We said yes and they asked where we went to school. We said SUU...they said "What!? We go there too!" Ironically enough, the people we happen to meet in California go to college with us in Utah. We ended up seeing them that day at Knotts Berry Farm. We got so freaking sick, but we had a blast. We went to a super fun farmers market that night. I loved it! It was so much fun. The rest of the trip was filled with walking around cute shops and hanging out at the beach, even though the weather was pretty crappy. We went on a two-person bike...we couldn't stop laughing. It was so awesome. Then at the end of our blissful California vaca, we stopped in Mesquite to stay the weekend there with Had's mom. It was sooo nice and we love tanning. One thing about me and Had is that we LOVE to match. We match all the time and most of the time it's not even on purpose. We got some super awesome matchy glasses at WalMart and our outfits matched basics every night. We had such a blast. We were so sad to be back and it took a little while to adjust (complaining much of the adjusting time).
Me and Had being cute and matchy in Mesquite.
our two-person bike ride:)
Life is always better at the beach.
went to breakfast at iHop before we did our shopping:)
I feel as if the past few months have been a blur. They have seriously FLOWN by. Mine and Jennifer's views have completely swapped this semester about going home. She has a boyfriend from heber, Carson. They trade off weekends, staying in Cedar and Heber. Her and Had both decided to move home for next semester. We'll all be going home for the summer, but they aren't coming back with me:(. SADDEST. It seriously makes me way nervous. I love having my friends with me...I'm so nervous about having weird roommates or something. What if they hate me, what if I hate them? Will I always just be by myself or will I have a blast? Time drives me crazy..."only time will tell." Well time, I want you to tell me now! My one wish is that I could tell the future. I want to know where I'll be and what I'll be doing in a few months, in a few years, and in a lot of years. I want to know who I will marry, where I'll live, if I'll have kids, and so on. Me and Had made this plan: if we are not married by the age of 27 we are moving and living together in New York. How fun?? I've always, always wanted to be a social worker in New York. What is better than exploring New York City with your best friend?? I guarantee Had will have the cutest, to-die-for married life though...and I can just move there by myself. Hahah. I literally have a huge fear of that happening, so maybe that's not funny. I used to hide that irrational fear of being "forever alone" by saying that's how I wanted it. I had everyone (or so I thought everyone) convinced that I wanted to be single forever. Hadly told me she defs knew me better. I finally gave in and told her that is definitely not what I want, even though the thought of marriage scares the shiz out of me. Doing an assignment in my psych 2010 class actually helped me realize that about myself. I actually do want to find someone evetually and get settled down; I find myself praying every night about it. What isn't helping about that is looking at all the adorable blogs that I've been looking at...it's defs adding to me being wedding-hungry (is that even a phrase?). Well, I've grown to realize that I just need to be happy with where I am right now and make the best of it. I know that one day it will all work out the way it's supposed to be, and when I find that guy that will take me to the temple it will all be worth the wait.
Well, this post is so lengthy; I've definitely gotten a little carried away. That is a little bit about how my first year of college has been!
hadlybingham.blogspot.com Read my bestie, Hadly's blog as well! So fun:)
My daughter is attenting bible college in the fall, and she is so nervous about her freshman year! I love your openness and the style of your writing; I feel like reading about your experience might make her feel more at ease. I'm definitely going to send her the link. Thank you for sharing!
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